Hi everyone, finally today I have been hit with the reality of what my 10 year addiction has done. I’m clean about 4 weeks now and don’t miss them at all, but my stomach pains and vomiting had got so bad I’ve been in hospital for a week and found out today that I have a huge ulcer and inflammation which has covered over the hole down to my stomach, so no food has been getting through and barely any liquid. This explains the constant vomiting and 3 stone weight loss. Now faced with a feeding tube for a while why they check the ulcer for malignant cells. Then more surgery to try and repair the stomach. My Mother has had to fly home from overseas to move in to look after my son who now has to come see me like this. I’m in a ward full of old people, constantly hungry and in pain all of my own doing. Im in shock right now feeling in a pretty dark place. I would hate anyone else to go through this so if you need motivation to take that extra step please remember the very real health risks every time you take them .Sending love and light to all x
