Hi M,
I think mines has suffered his own paranoia but he’s not redirected this at me and accused me of anything. Honestly if there was anything like that, I would have done a runner as this is hard enough to go through! He’s not been abusive like a lot of ladies on these forums have been through but if he had I wouldn’t be on here, I would be gone and wouldn’t have looked back.
He has told me before that in his head he always thinks I’m too good for him and will leave him, that addict thing that then justifies them continuing to use and do what they like as what’s the point in trying, she’ll leave me anyway etc. They have to point fault at you to take away from their own faults.
It sounds like you’re going through a living hell and maybe him living there isn’t what’s best for you? Is he still using I take it?
I hope you’re making time for you and even taking wee steps to take your life back x