Hi paw,
yeah he’s still taking it. Has been non stop for 4 weeks and last night was icing on cake harassing me while at a school prom to say goodbyes to the school leavers I’ve supported at the school I work in.
he thought I had a plan to hook up with a member of staff their and had even invited himself along which I explained wasn’t possible! Obviously lol
i was a wreck, stayed an hour and came home. Which I had only planned to do anyway.
He was accusing me of turning up there drunk, I barely drink.
he FaceTimed me and I could see he was the one off his head!!!
he was calling me awful names which he has only ever done once.
the worst thing is I hardly ever go out and the times I do this is the type of reaction and to be honest sometimes sober too due to his abandonment issues but not as over the top
All of his sorrys and begging he did before he found out I was popping out now mean nothing. He was promising to go back to meetings and saying how badly he’s messed up this Time. Had also been missing for a few days until a few days ago but I haven’t had him back.
I actually came home and burst in to tears to my 20 year old daughter and showed her the messages which I’ve never done before I think a part of me knew she would take control, which I feel selfish for now. She grabbed my phone and blocked him. She sent him an angry message and then she blocked him too.
the way I felt yesterday and I’m feeling today I’m just sickened by what this drug does to people. I don’t recognise him.
Even if he starts meetings again I really don’t know if I can get over this feeling.
xxx