Hi John,
Hope you’re doing ok today. I clicked on your profile and I can still see all your previous posts, not sure where they are in the thread though. Sometimes posts do disappear then appear again ????????♀️
I too used the pills as a crutch as well as for pain. They just numbed me and I could forget about past trauma or the crappy day I was having.
I was taking a lot and mine were mixed with paracetamol, it’s crazy how much we end up taking just chasing the ‘high’
I’ve never tapered before as this is my first time coming off them, but I’m sure Mark will be along soon to answer your question ????