I also wanted him to be okay, that’s always been my priority, the first time he told me he cheated he also disappeared for a few days, no one knew where he was and even then, the relationship wasn’t my priority anymore all I wanted was for him to be okay and safe and (brutally honest) alive.
He texted me today about some money he owed me and when I asked him when he was available for next week he didn’t answered and that was like around 6pm, at 9pm he still didn’t answered so I tried to rang him just because of habits tbh and he also haven’t picked up the phone. He’s still sharing his location and I can see hes home so maybe he’s just ignoring me so I can have some focus on my school stuff. Not texting him all day long is quite hard on me since Im not really used to this. 🙁
Im scared that the only way this feeling we both are feeling will go away is to leave or at least wait until they are recovering from drug abuse. But my biggest fear is that he’s gonna give his best version to someone else 🙁 that’s really gonna wreck my soul. Because that means that he don’t think I deserve the best version of himself. Its night now so my thoughts and anxiety are very very pessimistic right now I apologise.