Thank you so much for your kind words, it may sounds egoistic but yes I am indeed a very kind, loving person and I and many others can say that my heart is pure and from gold. Thats why I think that someone like him needs someone like me in his life, to show him that the world is not that bad and that life isnt against you like he thinks. But again, I have to admit that for the long term this is gonna ruin me and that my personality will definitely change into a bitter person, I cant do that to myself.
Are you still with your partner if I may ask?
Everyday is a rollercoaster to me, one day I think its the best to call this quit and move on, be happy, live life as a single fun girl who’s done it for years actually. The other days Im like no, we’ve been through too much to just throw this all away I wanna be with him.
My ex before him from 4 years ago treated me really badly, toxic and just almost evil. I stayed single for those years after him, then I met my current boyfriend (i dont even know if hes still my man tbh) and everything went so well and great until he started using more and more and on the daily. I just think that Im really hurt by the fact, I had bad experience with every possible boyfriend and when I though I had a great one it ended not the way I thought it would. Although I know that being single will not kill me.