Yes I got called a slag a few times lol couldn’t be one if I tryed lol it was definitely not him as in all the 30 years of being together he never called me anything like that. Definitely the drugs and the paranoia.
He’s been clean for 18 months now and when he first came home it was very strange as the last time he was home it was so bad. He looked guilty all the time and kept saying to me I’ve put you through so much he was really distant though and kept saying I deserve better, but after a while things were starting to return to normal doing all the things we did before his addiction, there was no intimacy as he’d lost all his confidence and he still struggles with this but unfortunately my happy ending got destroyed with his big secret he was holding back, his affair 5 years ago while in addiction and the result of a five year old child! The struggle is 100% back for me now as this is another level of pain! He sees this child once a week which kills me coz he obviously has to see the mother, he’s reassured me there’s nothing there with the mother but my trust has gone! He said this is why he accused me of cheating coz he thought I’d found out and I was getting him back totally childish but that’s what was going on in his head at the time.
I really don’t know what the future holds for us as its all just too much, he’s trying to stay clean every day aswell as keeping me and his 3 children happy and then this other child plus work and doing meetings, it just all seems too much and I am concerned about relapse.
I just wish I’d run a million miles away years ago and I wouldn’t be where I am today but that’s life!
How long have you been with your partner for?
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