Hi Mary.
Pain is pain as they say,whether that be physical or emotional. I know exactly where your coming from,however i will say confiding in a close family member would be of great help during the process,it can be a very lonely time.You have read the thread,you know what too expect ie. withdrawing ect.You are not going to be very well.
Whatever you decide is your decision, we’ll all be here for support if needed. Good luck and be strong,you got this!
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