[Fiona1999]

Yes you are right, I should choose for myself and I think I will this time. I am actually so exhausted from the constant worrying and stressing. We haven’t really talked in a few days now and I must admit that I feel relieved and free.

Monday (hopefully, if he’s sober) we are gonna talk. I hurts me knowing that he really wanted us to work but simply cannot because of his addiction. The only thing that’s been keeping me a bit sane is that this all “should have happen” and who knows in the future whenever he’s recovering and I am also healed from past trauma’s we meet again, but for now I can only focus on moving forward.

I also don’t know if I should stay in contact with him? What do you think?