Thanks JamesB for the mention. Only with acceptance and ownership can we as addicts truly reflect on what’ve become and whether or not you want better for yourself. I mention yourself as it has to be for you. Unconditionally for you and you only. What follows is a ripple effect, you’re the stone that creates the wonderful ripples that everyone gets to experience from recovery. Once I had accepted it was all my doing, actually the future looked great. There are no guarantees in this game as we know but I knew I deserved better such was the desire for the true me as you’ve described.
To all the loved ones who have responded to JamesB, have hope because at times thats all you have left. Sometimes it really is fate on whether or not that bulb ticks on in the addicts brain for desiring a better future. Question is how long do you hold onto Hope at the detriment of yourself. I know I came very close to removing all chances of hope from my wonderful wife.
Love and Blessings to you all