This is all so true. I’m not sure what I’m getting, I’ve took time to think about this and I’m asking for attention, love, to be held, emotional support and I manage the money.. I feel like when I look at it I’m responsible for all of it and he only needs to look after him but I still do that too.
So I’m not sure what I’m getting and that’s opening my eyes up. When he’s not drinking he’d down, angry, resentful.. would he always be like that if he stayed of the drink and codeine? Will it always be anger in the house or does that leave?
I feel like I have so much to think about and what to do. He can be so generous but it’s mainly if you are out or a birthday he can make you feel amazing but everyday? The negativity is overwhelming the more I think of it.
Love is so strange to still be here when I struggle to see the positive