I’m so sorry to hear that he passed, I’m sure no matter your journey that hurt so I’m sorry for your loss.
I’ve asked him to leave after more lies about drinking and if he has, where, who with and I realised no matter if im wrong on occasion the doubt, searching, pupil checks.. it’s all too much. I can’t be responsible for all of that every day and worrying what the next thing will be.
We haven’t spoke yet and I’m not sure what will happen when we do but right now I’m using this time to learn and I’ll read up on the model you’ve recommended thank you, and to think about what I get from the relationship and who we are outside of fighting the one of many problems.
One thing I do know though is I don’t like who I am in it and that’s alot. Did you ever deal with the anger and resentment? It’s hard to work through it all