Crack, your sincere description of the situation that you have found yourself in is heartbreaking and life changing for yourself and many who will read it. That you can still recognize and care what is happening to you is a major step in your recovery. Drugs changed my husband into a weirdo too. Drugs can and will do that. It’s not personal. Drugs do that to the human body. Like any other traumatic life event, fight for yourself. You can win this one. All of us here, want you to win. Stay with us.
We need you here.