I totally agree Navy, I honestly don’t know where I would be without these forums and speaking to people in similar situations ❤️
I should probably update given this post is about whether there’s a happily ever after… my partner was fine since the overdose in May, making progress, going to meetings everyday, we were away together last week and since then I was making an effort to have him over more, making him dinner, thinking this was all progress to him coming back home eventually. Spoke to him on Tuesday night after I’d been at the gym and instantly felt something was off, you know that feeling in your gut that just said to me out of the blue “he sounds like he’s on the gear”. No reason to suspect it, no reason for it at all, but I felt it. He was “ill” all day Wednesday and confessed to a slip yesterday after I told him I felt something and wanted to know. So just when you think maybe it’ll all be okay, maybe we’ll make it.. it all changes in an instant.
One thing I’ve learned from this horrible life is always trust your gut. I used to ignore that wee voice, that feeling, but she’s proven herself right so many times, even when it doesn’t make sense.
My happily ever after is getting further and further away x