It is a nightmare lovely and please don’t take anything he says to heart. You aren’t the problem. I think sometimes it easier for them to run than face the problem.
You just need to take care of you and do what’s best for you. I know it’s so hard not to worry about them 24/7, but it honestly drains the life out of you to do it. You end up sacrificing everything you are for them and it’s not fair. You’re a person too, your feelings matter, your life matters. I have screamed that at my partner over the last 6 months to no avail!
But keep posting here as you’re right, these forums were such a lifeline for me too. We are all stronger together and we all have your back ❤️ I don’t know if you’re on the Famanon forums as well but they’re also a great support network of ladies? You will get through this, no matter what happens or what you choose – but just make sure you do what’s best for you x