Hello Frahar,
I really feel your pain; it is an evil, wicked drug that destroys people. He sounds very troubled by his words and actions and then seeks refuge in your kindness. But you need to try and start to think about yourself and your well-being, as hard as that is to put into practice (trust me, I feel your pain.) There is a fantastic helpline that you can ring for advice, I have been on the phone with them constantly over the past few days, its called DrugFam. They are very helpful and insightful at the depths of supporting an addict.
How are you doing in all of this? Would it be an option for you to cut contact for a while or do you think the fear of not hearing from him will be worse? You need to understand that we can’t help them, as much as we desperately want to and would give anything to do 🙁
I really hope you are okay and I am so sorry you’re going through this. It is absolutely hell!
xx