So here I am, I think I should say hi. My life is a complete mess. I feel anxious and stressed. My parents died, then my brother died, then my husband and I separated, then we went through court, then had to move out with girls, find a new home, start a new job and been stressed financially too. All this time I have been wrongly taking codeine to get me through. At my height it was 840 mg a day (28 tablets), I have now dropped to 12 tablets and the race is on to get off them. I have booked in with a council group but the waiting list is long. So it’s just me on my own for now. I thought I would do a big jump to 12 a day and hold it there for a week, and then get down to 8 a day and then a sensible timescale off. I feel scared to go cold turkey as I need to go to work and look after the girls. I’m absolutely shattered from the drop – I’m in bed by 9pm!reading the thread there are a few of us that are on the list with huge amounts of the drug in our bodies. I think I have a battle to stay on track. I have one friend who knows I’m here. He is amazing and never judges me. I’m totally ashamed. I’m a complete idiot, not sure why I thought it was a sustainable way to live your life. So for now it’s day to day. This is my journey to beat this drug. I do feel alone, but I’m determined to change my life for my girls.
