Hello lovely,
Thank you for responding and for being able to decode my crackers message. It is just vile, I am exactly where you are right now.. only my husband has called quits on us. He’s decided he’s better off alone, so has spent all day changing all the bills etc into my name. I rang him up, absolutely crushed to his response of ‘oh not this again, can you not’ I’m so done with feeling like a weirdo.. a stalker and a crazy person just as you have said. It’s exhausting and to be quite honest, deep down I know I am better off alone.. but it’s the idea of throwing away my marriage. It sucks! But he’s clearly not willing to make it work… so I finally think it’s time I focussed on me. Sorry for making this all about me lol, it’s just been one of my lowest days today. I broke down at work to my boss, shes agreed to reduce my timetable because I’m such a wreck right now.
Back to you, honestly everything you’ve said has been literally me my whole marriage. The codependency, the waiting, the detective role, the ‘i’m crazy” role… its not fair! How are things now? Has there been any updates? I desperately want to read you responding that he’s come to his senses, come home and realised what he has.. but I know this game so well. I’ve been playing it for 10 years and I want you to know that you are absolutely not alone.
I really hope you’re okay and I’ll look forward to your response xxx