Hello,
You’ve made the first biggest step by recognising that you have a problem; I really applaud you for this knowledge. It is a horrendous drug that ruins lives and strips people from being unrecognisable. My husband was perfect, we had the most wonderful life… then the occasional use spiralled into a nasty addiction, and now he is back at his mums, jobless and pushing me out of his life.
If I can advise you of anything, it’s be truthful; the lies are the things that ruin the relationships around you. Be honest, be vulnerable and access help. Your GP can signpost you or you can attend CA meetings. There is also lots of really informative advice on YouTube, a favourite of my husband’s was Menace to Sobriety. Very insightful.
Please don’t do what my husband has done and completely lose control; get a hold of it now. Make changes and rely on the people who love you. It’s not too late!!
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