Hello my lovely, I’m in a similar position. Over the last year I have ‘discovered’ that my husband of 20 years, partner of 35 years, father to our 3 children is addicted to cocaine and is a spiralling alcoholic. Last night I found out he has always done since we have been together. He thinks it is OK, and it appears, cocaine is acceptable to alot of our society. They don’t see what we see, they don’t getvtge psychosis, tge lies, accusations, financial predicament we are put in. And then we get blamed for ending relationships. No blame, reason seems to be attributed to the addict themselves as they are ‘unwell’.
This won’t be helping you but just so you know you aren’t alone. It’s not in your head, you are NOT to blame – i am talking to you and me!!
Honestly, get shot as quick as you can, don’t look back. Everything I have read in a zillion different places doesn’t seem to find a cure or the end of the addiction. We are at the bottom, being trampled on, our hearts cut out and strewn around the neighbourhood. People really don’t get it. You are worth more, we all are, your child is worth more. Good luck my lovely. If you find the answer let me know. Xxx