Hi Mlft
im so sad reading this, I can’t believe this happening to you with 4 children and one under a year old. How do you cope? I have to tell you that they don’t change. If they have been doing this for years it’s so hard for them to come clean. It’s takes alot of effort and determination on their part to get it out of their system they have to have professional help on a daily basis this drug is nasty stuff. They have to want to do this for themselves.
I’ve been going through this since I met my husband back in 1998, in 2020 I started questioning things I was lied to for years. I desperately wanted to believe that he wanted to be sober. I left him a couple of times but I’m now so tired and old that I just want to give up, apparently he has been off it for a month now which I don’t believe I’m so tired of all this. I’m watching him constantly.
if you have a chance to leave him and bring up 4 children without him do it. You will find love again. Your children will be happier as you can stop pretending that everything is ok and you lying to them about where dad is. I say go.
sending you all my love & hugs. Keep strong for your children and you
navy xx