Hi there
Its an awful feeling of not trusting a loved one. The sense that he has lied the way he lies and actually thinks it’s ok. He can’t see it as lies either.
I can’t give advice on how you handle this as I’m feeling exactly the same.
my husband supposed to be clean for at least a month now but I don’t see the difference, I did for around two weeks then I think it started again.
when he’s on it and trying to hide it he becomes mr big and I am and I will and makes plans to do this go there see them etc etc and also sexually engaging, then the following day the bottom falls out of his ideal world. He tired, irritable, unwell, etc this usually lasts 2-3 days then here comes another surge of energy and I end up in a row as he’s let me down for appointments, engagements, events, etc.
<p style=”text-align: center;”>I want to be strong to leave him. This is the hardest part like you it’s been years together only 20 but to find out they always used hurts I feel he was never and still isn’t happy to be with me that he has to use this stuff to feel happiness.</p>
Please take care of you first and do what you need to do. It’s so hard being the strong one especially if they are good at manipulative behaviour and turning things into your fault. I know that as I’m there at the moment.
please keep posting here to have someone to talk too, whether you stay or go we will support as there’s no right or wrong way to handle this situation. It’s easier said than done to walk away from the life you built with a man you love who supposed to be happy in the life together but finds that white stuff more enjoyable!!!!
I hope I haven’t babbled on to much
love navy