Hi both
thank you for your responses. I’m so sad as we are back to the dishonesty and he has used again!! He says he wants to get sober yet I don’t feel it from him. I feel that he is using me.
I don’t like the new normal I just want a life with the man I fell in love with. I just want someone to hold when I’m feeling low who will just hug me and say it will be ok. Hold my hand when out for a walk and sit in silence when need be but just be there. It’s gone and I don’t think it will ever come back.
I’ve been on this site for over a year and I’ve just realised life it too short for all this s**t.
if he wants to ruin his then so be it but I can’t be part of it. He says he is going to join rehab!!! I’ve asked him to see a professional and share the results with me. I now need proof as I don’t trust or believe him anymore. I can’t keep going through this I’m getting too old.
It broke my heart today to see those words The devil won today im haunted by this and hate spending so much time alone.
I hope your both coping with your OH
take care
thank you again Navy xx