hi lozzy
thank you for your reply and yes your experiences sound so similar to mine. I think we are just wasting our lives to be honest, they are never going to change, I’ve asked the question on these groups and seen replies to many other threads it seems some couples are able to live a happy life after addiction, which I had hoped but it seems very few
I know in my heart separation is definitely happening this time, I’ve got a car and am looking for a job (I worked for him and his companies have gone into administration) so am slowly trying to rebuild, his behaviour has now got worse as he has less and less control so things are going to get worse before they get better I sadly think, examples from this week I need to get off chest
he has hidden lots of our keys, i can get in the main house but can not go in the garage, (where the Christmas decorations are so am not able to put them up for the kids, if nothing else) go in our postbox, or shed, today all my clothes, shoes and bags have been chucked in my daughters room and he has locked the master bedroom (I wasn’t sleeping in there just showering and dressing)
i have also returned home today after a message saying he didn’t want me to be shocked as he’d had to sell some non essential items to pay some bills, any paintings, mirrors, photo’s, clocks, plants etc are all gone even the log basket ????♀️ they aren’t huge money items (tvs etc still there) so I feel it’s just to hurt me as it’s silly personal homely stuff, it does upset me but I keep thinking he won’t be able to do this soon
Again thank you so so much for your message I’m sorry I’ve gone on again it’s been a bad day, I have spoken to my family and friends today which I wouldn’t tend to do, they are giving me strength, I do hope you are able to move on too soon and get the life you deserve too
Take care x