WOW! I despise that a GP can get us hooked, so easily, and knowing the withdrawal process, same goes for Anti depressants
I have emotional disregulation disorder (BPD), and unfortunately it comes with addictive traits, and triggers.
I took codeine 30/500 for about 5 years, up until 2018 when I broke free, however, due to carpal tunnel & nerve damage in my neck I started again in 2020… lost my sister that year to lung cancer, and then lost my mother to esophagus cancer a year ago, caring for them both nearly finished me, so, I’ve needed plenty of dopamine to boost my adrenaline, hence abuse of cocodamol in 2023.
Came in to 2024 wanting to change as I have no family, or friends anymore, and my 16yr old daughter has rebelled completely the last 12 month’s, so, my grief has been intense, as well as my substance abuse.
I had a trigger happen on 6th January, and stopped smoking cannabis which I’ve done since 1994, but, started taking Zoplicone from my GP. 6 days later I started having severe psychosis & stopped codeine, aswell as Zoplicone, as I thought they didn’t go well together, and quit sugar too (i tried to tackle all my demons at once, which backfired).. I’ve lost just over a stone in 2 weeks and have crumbled mentally, I’ve rung samaritans and CALM hotlines daily. Zoplicone withdrawal has eased, as of 2 days ago, thankfully as that was horrific! I’ve never been so suicidal in my life, it was very scary.
But, now I’m left with severe agitation and restlessness, which I’ve never had before, day 4 like this, headaches, sweating and sensitive to light. The only thing that eases the agitation is walking with my dog for cpl hour’s, but, it comes back, the nights are terrible and I dread what the next day will bring like others here have stated.
I’m hoping my symptoms will ease very soon, but I know they may take a few week’s to subside.
I’ve had to reintroduce 8/500 codeine at 2 tabs per day, just to give my body something as I can’t handle the agitation. 16mg is better than 240mg per day I suppose
I’m really struggling mentally at the moment, and am extremely thankful that I have found this thread and website, it all made sense with how I felt, on and off codeine!
Thank you to everyone for posting! Hopefully I’ll be a new man in 4 weeks time. Trying to pick my life back up and make my mother proud and smile down on me… I’ll try to reply with updates over the next few week’s to how it’s going
KEEP GOING AND STAY STRONG TO ALL OF YOU THAT READ THIS, LIFE IS AS BEAUTIFUL AS YOU WANT IT TO BE!
SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO LOSE YOURSELF, IN ORDER TO FIND YOURSELF AGAIN ❤