I haven’t actually updated on here for a few days – I’m coming up for the illusive day 18 and I will admit I feel like a totally different person and it does get better everyday. I’d stopped waking up with the dread feeling although my anxiety has always been an issue so I would still have times of feeling anxious.
I’ve been out to a few public places, a couple of meals and I’ve been picking my kids up everyday and it’s definitely getting easier to be around people too.
I started to feel a little strange last night though, some anxiety and weirdness but I have started my period today and I’m wondering if this has possibly triggered it as my body associates the period with taking cocodomal – I would usually take them as I suffer with period pains. So I feel a little on edge and odd but am thinking their is a multitude of reasons my body could be feel anxious and panicky. And also from the posts I’ve read in the past I’ve seen that it can take a couple more weeks to feel 90% normal.
I just think people should be aware that even when we start to feel normal it creeps back in sometimes but I feel like this is a normal process for our body to be going through. I don’t know if I’m writing this more for myself than for others, as it feels good to get my feelings out that are just bouncing around in my head.
Been trying to distract myself all day but I’m finding it a little harder today.
I’m hoping someone may even see this who has felt the same at their time of the month after recovering from codeine addiction and give me some advice or reassurance.
Also, even though my situation was a little different to others in regards to the way I became addicted and went cold turkey unknowingly I’m still finding myself thinking today oh maybe if you just have a cocodomal youll feel okay, which is so strange for me. I’m completely fine with the feeling I can get past it but it’s so strange for me.
Hope everyone’s OK x