Hi, I am new to this site and just read your post. Looking at the date years have past. What is the situation like now?
My son has a problem with substance abuse and some drink. I can feel your desperation and hopelessness. As you say you are not trying to be a saint – you are a mum trying to save your sons life. These addictions ruin so many peoples lives. I don’t take drugs so why is it ruining my life? I am a mum and wish I could just cut this situation out of my life but unfortunately I’m not a robot so can’t stop feeling – it would be easier if we could. Like you I wonder what it would be like to have a ‘normal life’. I do hope things have improved for you and your son over these years and I know it’s a lonely place to be.