‘The lies, unfaithfulness, broken trust is this all through the coke?’
No. It can’t be. There are too many steps to get there. Our addicts choose these behaviors for their coveted drug/drink. They know what they are doing and choose to do it anyway. You have described the traumatic life of a woman in love and totally committed to an addict. It is lonely, scary, and confusing to watch this person that you love change into something else – when you are looking right at them. They don’t magically change back into who they WERE before drugs after they quit the drugs. Don’t be fooled. The devil is running this show. If your decision is to stay, leave, or somewhere inbetween – then add this part into your decisions.