Your story brought tears to my eyes. To think someone so young had to go through that is just awful. My sons are now 31 and 29 but it still hurts that their dad would rather have a drink than anything else.(for about the last 10 years now)
The bottle is a hard mistress and no-one and nothing comes close. My husband preferred to carry on drinking and miss his youngest son’s wedding than pack in the bottle. You must remember none of his problems are down to you, it is entirely his choice, but madam booze will not be given up easily. As my sons say, they have grieved for their dad although his body is still here, his mind has left us all.
An alcoholic has to want help in order to get it and sometimes they just won’t/can’t admit there is a problem so why do they need help? I just wish there was more help for us poor people who ave to live through these terrible times.
As you do walk down the aisle,with your Mum or brother at your side, try to think of the best time you had with your Dad before the rot set in. I’m sure he will be watching from above if the worst has happened. Take care of yourself and good luck in life.