Hi, thanks for your support in this, I dont mind the questions, he uses between 10 and 70 pounds a day depending on how much money Ive got he doesnt work he had a heart attack a couple of years ago and now he has liver problems Im a teacher and thats how he gets his money. We are together all the time but the niceness is dependent on how much money Ive got although he will deny this! We are friends but I feel very responsible or him and it eels very one sided a lot of the time. Im not allowed out alone or to have my own phone or go on facebook, he used to try and hide it but because Im more outspoken and need more support now I will tell people what he does like my dad and mum and his mum but everyone else doesnt know, its shameful isnt it? We have four children and one on the way, aged 10 8 6 and 4 he has never been physically abusive towards me and the only time Ive been scared is when he has had a “bad” bit and its sent him mad and I sent him from the house until he was “normal” again. Ive never tried any drugs and I dont drink, Ive never even tried a cigarette. Hes not verbally abusive towards me either but then there hasnt really been a day where he hasnt had drugs. It sounds silly but he can pick on, sounds childish doesnt it but I dont know how else to explain it, just lately his behaviour has changed and hes repeating things a lot forgetting things and waffling more than usual Im convinced its because of long term drug abuse causing it but could be his liver problem I suppose. Dont get me wrong its not always bad we do have a laugh together and although I have to ask for affection its never denied me I just feel so lonely. Thanks again for your support x
