Hi to you both
In my sons eyes I am to blame for everything. Always have been. Some days I feel so stressed its like being squeezed of emotion by a large snake. When I see him, i cant wait to get away from him. Although after an incident a couple of weeks ago i cant see him. But when I dont see him, I worry too. I never know what each day is going to bring. My son does not know where we live anymore, if he did he would be here smashing everything to get in. We have younger children who are so frightened of him. I stopped washing his clothes and taking him food as thats the advice i was given. He gets benefits money and spends it on drugs. Even though i dont take him food he still does this. I am glad I am not seeing him at the moment as I think it would be too difficult to deal with. He is grey, skinny and filthy dirty. He text me today to tell me that the place he is staying have told him tonight is his last night. Dont know what that means but have warned him if he behaves badly then he wont have a roof over his head. Dreading what tomorrow will bring. Easier to know he is on the streets when the weather is good but when its wet and freezing its not so easy to deal with. Nobody would believe if I told them half of what I deal with. Keep strong ladies xx
