I think it helps a little just writing it down, a counsellor once advised me to go somewhere peaceful where I wouldn’t be disturbed and write a letter to my son about all of my feelings about the situation, not to give it to him if I didn’t want to but just to put all my worries etc on paper, although I didn’t actually give my son the letter I felt a little better just writing it all down, I too think some happy ending would be helpful but sadly in my experience there are not many, I don’t know if u read my post but I thought 17 years on I had got my happy ever after, this latest relapse has been by far the worse maybe because I thought it was all behind us, I’m just hoping 2014 is going to be a peaceful year as it’s getting harder to pick myself up, it’s true what they say that drugs ruin not just one life but the lives of all around them, just remember people do care and solace can be found with support, sorry if this is a bit long winded but I wanted you to remember you are not alone, take care x