Hi sue, so sorry to hear this :(( and thank you for your kind words :)). I think every one who loves/cares about an addict who is a family member/friend will always feel they have let them down in some way. It’s a natural feeling, we know it’s not our fault, but understand how you feel that you could’ve done more or done something else. In truth by being there just to listen,and loving them is more than you can do for someone with addictions, as they fight their demons on a daily basis and my brother too feels he has to drink/do drugs to feel ‘normal’. Your son knows you love him and I’m sure he knows it’s not your fault. I know my mum and I sometimes feel hopeless and that we have nothing left to give but with support from friends and a good rant gets it off our chest for a bit, ready to face the next chapter! ;))) sending lots of luck to you and your son. Xx