Every word you have written is a mirror image of my life, I know exactly how you feel from the moment I open my eyes im wondering when he will use next , the lies I can see straight through them, I have also learnt far to much about addiction that there is no place for him to hide, and even though I love him so vety much I know deel down it will never pan out to be a happy ever after, its a waiting game of who will break first , will he end up in a box or will I ever find the strength to walk away, we never askedto fall in love with an addict , but thats all they are is an addict and unless they decide to kick it we will always come second best , as much as they say they love us everytime we forgive it gives them the green light to use again and again , they will only ever change when they have nothing left and then theywill have to fight to get it back, and if they dont fight as much as it would hurt atleast you know you have done the right thing to ensure your happiness, I love my other half so much but this isnt a life its a living nightmare and the only one to stop it is you , I wish I had a cure an all the answers for you, but noone does you just neefto find the strength to walk away , not forever but just so he knows he has to change , like me when we forgive they seem to forget, but I cant forget , they call it tough love and I think its the only way, if all you want is to be happy then you need to choose life not love xxxx my thoughts are with you xxx
