Oh dear, you sound like most of us..the realisation that we are not enough is like a kick in the stomach….Have you a group near you where you can talk to others???? Just someone else listening gives you strength…My son has a child and I hate to say this but the alcohol and drugs come first..he would rather spend his money on himself than his son….now its taken me alot to write that, but I cannot lie anymore….both my grandchilds parents are not fit to give a loving home and social services are involved…As grandparents we have gone through fostering so IF anything else comes to light he will come to us….kids deserve to have their parents, but if it hinders their emotional balance, they way they view their family life, then the only looser here is the child… It sounds to me like she is simply going through the motions to keep you all quiet…something addicts do very well….Here if you need me luv ….
