Hi again sue, just read you blog and again its the same for me, I kept wondering where it all went wrong, I have in the past convinced myself that it must have been something I did or didn’t do that made my daughter turn to drugs, I’ve been told umpteen times it wasn’t anything to do with us, but then I think other horrible things must have happened to her, but if it did she certainly hasn’t said anything about it, I know we all blame ourselves and I’m told that’s normal, but can’t convince myself that, I’m sorry to hear you were I’ll, that can’t have been easy for you, with all the worry and stress of your son as well, but glad to hear your on the right track now, if only we could all just be happy with what we have, but I know its in our heads all the time, my husband and I can’t even go on holidays as I won’t leave my granddaughter at home alone with her , but would love a holiday and just get some me time,. You said it yourself you are the most important person in your life, stay strong and keep in touch, lily1