Hi, I joined this site about 10 minutes ago and have read your posts. My heart goes out to you all. I have recently thrown my son out. He is a heroin addict, is extremely clever and manipulative and you can never tell when he is telling the truth or not. He consistently blamed me for his addiction and his weakness, I would say, on an average at least 20 times per day. If things didn’t go his way he became nasty and verbally aggressive and break things but never his own property. For the first time in what seems forever, I could leave my handbag unattended, not sure why I mentioned that. I suppose what I am trying to lead on to is that, like our adult children, at some point, unsually when we just can’t mentally or emotional take anymore. When your whole body hurts from the pain and guilt that we feel because we are all too convinced that our kids are the way they are because we have done something wrong as a parent. So we make a choice, mine was to disown my son. The son I know died when the heroin took him over. This is the hardest choice I will ever have to make. It is not normal for a mother to make such a choice and I feel evil, hurt, angry and heartbroken and desperate but I know that by making this choice it may, just may, help him to reach rock bottom where he may just realise how and what this evil drug is doing to him. Please tell me if I am evil or if I am doing the right thing?
