He always will be your son Fiona and like me you hate what he has and is doing but love the boy who is your son, hold onto the many many good and happy memories that im sure you have, Ive not seen my son for over a month now and its so hard but im informed that somehow he has managed to keep hold of his flat so at least he has a roof over his head but unfortunately has got several “friends” staying with him, god only knows what state he is in, I am determined to stand by my resolve and have no contact I cannot continue to live my life as I have for many years so something has got to change and I cant see it being him. Its not getting any easier though, all I want is my little boy back and I know thats impossible, too much has happened that cant be undone, im feeling so down tonight as im certain you are, life is so unfair, take care hunny im praying extra hard tonight love Sue Xxxxxx
