[sad-and-tired]

well after everything I have said, I have done it again. He was a day away from losing his car insurance and his job, he begged me to help him with bills. promised he would stay in at night, leave his account alone, go and get help for his problem. So I helped him and at midnight he has gone out, to mcdonalds he says……. I am so angry with myself I must be the worlds biggest mug…….I cant even begin to imagine what the hell he is up to, but I don’t think I can do this much longer, it is the lies and deceit as much as anything, he just doesn’t seem to be able to help himself…….