Hi just_another_story your story reminds me of my childhood excepts Mum was an alcoholic. She also took all sorts of drugs but it was the alcohol that was the main daily problem. This meant I raised my younger brother and 3 younger sisters. I cooked, cleaned, done the washing, shopping and generally became responsible for everything. She suffered terrible moods swings so we were quite brutally beat at times (I remember being left with marks and bruises because she said I smirked at her) I began to hate her and couldn’t wait to grow up and escape (daydream of 1 day having my own perfect family) I fell pregnant at 17 and had my first child – a daughter and been with her dad for 14 years now, we have 3 children now. My mum stopped drinking and taking drugs 12 years ago and I’ve forgiven her. My partner is addicted to Crack and I keep holding on hoping he’ll give up – I use every excuse. He stays off it for months, then relapses. I’m scared to break my family or if I leave him he might get worse. After all I’ve been through I’ve learnt never to go down that road (I never want to be like she was) yet when I love I really love, I’m very soft, or maybe a walk over. How old are you now if you don’t mind me asking?
