I think the thing to remember is that it IS going to hurt it is goin to be hard and u will miss that person and still love that person which i have to accept in order to be able to put myself first bcoz ive said for so long that i deserve better that i am not willing to go back if theres another relapse n ov corse there has been n ov corse i have..but i think i worry still n thats wot makes me send a tx sayin he can come and eat with us or meet me i feel guilt i feel a deep sadness that he has nobody but when i see him it hurts as i look at man that isnt truly with me he is lost and he is thin and he hasnt eaten n it is just so sad i cant bear to let go n not know what is happening to him but im not his mom n i cant as much as it is goin to hurt live in his addiction nymore i feel us or myself pulling more n more away n mayb thats why im upset bcoz i no deep down before i no it i wont have him in my life nymore n i still love my partner and im scared of letting go ill be honestt ive only really got him n my kids but we will never have a true n good life whilst he uses
