Hi, thank you ever so much for taking the time to read my story and for replying. I really appreciate it.
I found a lot of comfort in your words, and it means the world to know my story related to someone.
I have felt so alone but i feel a little bit more better knowing im not on my own and all the broken hearts are in it together.were all fighting our own unique war.
I struggle because i am exhausted from the stress, my health has declined due to the excess pressure, stress and strain, i dont feel depressed i just feel so lost.
Its so hard barring all the weight and the abuse just tops it all off.
I dont know which is worst sober or drunk each side of him is just cruel.
I wanted to call the police many of times but my parents begged me not too, i am normally a direct and straight up person but since all this agro i have become a shell of myself..i dont know who i am anymore. He has all the power control and simply manipulates everyone in to doing what he wants. Its just like our life is the show and hes using us as puppets for his own entertainment. Simply awful. Apprently my mum has an appointment with his doctor who is perscribing a drug called neltrexone she is hoping for a miracle but I said he has to want to change, he has to take them and not drink otherwise there is no point even starting. Its been a long haul journey and he doesn’t realise what damage he has done. With no memorey or remorse or feeling for any of us he just doesn’t care. And it hurts because I remember everything and I am going through it.. I am like his withdrawal effect where I was once his big sister. I think I need to talk to someone about how I feel because its slowly tearing me apart. Xxx