Hey xx
I read your story and had to wipe away tears, I really feel for you. This is the first time I have been on a site like this
I’ve not once spoke to anyone about my life and what I am going through. I’m a sister of an alcoholic, my brother is 21 and has been drinking extremely heavy for 8 years. I can’t even begin to imagine how life is for you with your dad, parents and siblings with the same addiction is so hard to difficate. Life is a struggle especially when you have a family of your own to worry about too. You are not being selfish, you have obviously done a wonderful job and made a huge effort to help your dad, but you can’t do it all. I am the lady of the house at the moment my parents are afraid of my younger brother and are manipulated puppets, I have a son of my own and commitments but I too are under extreme pressure and want so much to help my parents but the abuse from my brother when he is sober and when he is drunk its even worse. Feels lime a loosimg battle.
To me it sounds like you are going the fort alone, you have a daughter to care for but you are also looking out for your dad, where he should be looking after you. Its not selfish of us who have tried our best to help them they need to help themselves to really appreciate it. I’m not sure of any centres or places where you can go, please don’t be burdened with all of this, I’m here if you would like to talk again. Xx