Thank you so much for your reply, it has literally bought me to tears. I know I’ve done the right thing for my children but even so the pain im feeling inside is unbearable. It’s almost as though I’m grieving for what could have been, for what he could have been if it weren’t for the disgusting powder he puts up his nose.
I can never understand the addiction he knows that, he has still been texting, the usual self pitying and I just feel like screaming what about me??!!! I don’t know whether to cut all contact or to stay in touch just to see how he’s getting on, I just don’t know. I do worry he will commit suicide. One thing is for sure he will not step a foot in this house again as an addict.
I am trying to stay strong but this pain inside keeps erupting. Thank you so much for your kind words, it is a huge comfort speaking to somebody who knows what I’m going through. My family are supportive but they do not under stand bin a way. I just dread to think my ex partner will end up dead at only 28, I will always care about him..I think that’s the saddest thing about it xxx
