I no exactly how u feel bcoz it is what i felt..it took over my life at tyms and my kids would see me broken or they would see the fights between us when i had found out he was using again etc i wouldnt wish the pain u r feeling now or i am feeling now when they are no longer here on my worst enemy..i went thru it alone bcoz i wasnt close to my fam so i would rarely talk about wot i was going thru with anybody..we had a million god tyms and he had tyms where he was well and clean and working etc but it was a constant back and forth and on and off wen relapse came around again..he was my best mate and a good person i think amny people think of an addict as a low life as someone that is horrible but myn wasnt..yea he changed wen using again and yea he caused me alot of pain thats wot heroin turns them into but he WAS MY SOUL MATE he didnt treat me bad i wouldnt have allowed it we had a great relationship most of the tym and that was worse bcoz i no how happy we coud have been for life if he could have beaten it..u need to put boundaries down bcoz they will take advantage even if they dont want to bcoz drugs are the most important thing to them and so if u let them take they will bcoz they need too…let him no u r there for him and that u love him but that he has to seek help etc if they always have a crutch if they never feel they have lost it all why have they any reason to stop…saying that tho sometyms it can take many rock bottoms before they can do it x
