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Oh dear that wasn’t so good . He turned up on something , whether it was weed or something else I don’t know . He was stumbling , losing the thread of the conversation and repeating himself . So although there are improvements that he is working and straight through the working week ( I spoke to his boss) it seems the weekends are not as drug free as I’d hoped . I don’t know if I’m just expecting too much at once but I’m so disappointed this eve . I won’t be inviting him back to the house for quite some time again . Somehow I thought he’d really make an effort for today after all the heartbreaks of the past . Why do I set myself up every time ? I’m a fool !