I am in the same situation as you I have been with my partner for 4 years and yesterday I had to kick him out I feel the same I’m grieving for the man inside not the one that’s behind the cocaine, I feel so lost and I don’t know y cause our relationship was bad to the end constant fighting, paranoia, I couldn’t move go out or just be me he turned me into a person I didn’t like, I have to kids and it’s effected them and if I don’t break away and stay away it will end up with either him dead or me and I need to keep telling myself this, hope u r ok and things work out x
