Hi Maddie.
I don’t know what to say… that is an unbelievable situation that no mother should have to go through. Are you getting any sort of external support to help you in any way? You shouldn’t have to go through this alone.
If you need or want anyone to speak to and perhaps point you in the direction of some help, you can speak to someone at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity with trained advisers who can provide support and even suggest local help. You can register on the website at http://www.icarustrust.co.uk/contact/ or email us at help@icarustrust.org.
I really hope things pick-up for you and start to sort themselves out.