Thanks for your comments. I feel so sorry for my grandchildren. I really don’t believe children should have to see such things but that thought makes me unpopular with my children. Besides all this I also feel so embarrassed. My girls used to be lovely and to see what drugs has done to them is heartbreaking. They don’t have a good tooth left in their heads yet the oldest is only 34. Its like I live 2 lives and I’m constantly stressed that my professional life will meet my personal. I moved back to where my children lived a couple of months ago. Two years ago I had thyroid cancer and I didn’t tell them hardly anything because I didn’t want to be a reason for them to take drugs. But I realised that my grandchildren were growing up not knowing me. I used to blame my ex for getting my children into this but now I have to concede they are making their own decisions. I truly believe that drugs are the plague of the modern times. I’m so sad for my children and grandchildren. Its like everyone always showing off their families so proud and I just stay silent. I married and had them young but I never took drugs or drank yet they are all on self destruct courses and I do feel guilty.
