[maddie]

thanks for all your comments really helpfull. since i ist wrote my son has yet again been intouch begging forgiveness yet again i said i would think about things.this as now caused a huge fallout with my husband and daughter thay do not want him back mainly to protect me. the more bad things he DOES TO ME i become morE UNWELL to the point of having a breakdown.i have done a lot of soul searching the last few days and i cant go through anymore.so as hard as it is i am keeping out of my life he cannot drag us any further down .